Home Away From Home? Endless Circle?

So, its 11:30 and i still have a crapload of homework...ive been working forever, but i feel like i havent done a thing yet...time is just ticking on, and i could really use a little bit more...but being me, instead of working on this hw, im on here blogging...w/e, i really needed to write, so screw my vet assisting, spanish, and geography classes.
I dnt know bout anyone else, but is this week moving reallyyyyyy, reallyyyyyy slowly? Seriously, its only the 2nd day of school this week and i wanna crawl into a hole. But this isnt meant to be about how much school sux, no...well, a little, but not mainly...

Anyways, today i realized my home away from home is starting to fade away. I feel like i dont belong anywhere anymore. For almost 8 years ive thought i found my home, the one place i belong, and the group of people im closest with. Lately though, im drifting away there; I always feel excluded, out of the loop, far away... so i seperate myself from them, since theyre seperating me anyways. Then school. I thought i found my friends, people who actually cared, and im not saying they dont, but even with them i dont feel like i fit. I always feel like i missed something, some crucial point of every story or joke, and when i ask, i either get ignored or snapped at. Yeah, i still love my friends, and always will, i just feel like we dont get each other anymore, or maybe its just me. Maybe im just too wierd or awkward to fit in with anyone. So i just seperate myself more. I miss being close with people and actually feeling like people care...

Which brings me into how school just kinda sucks. Its just like one endless circle. I get up in the morning at 5 freaking 15, put my headphones in and drain out all other sound for 20 something minutes on the bus, talk pointlessly to people about nothing, endure class, go to the barn, where when its just me and my pony, i actually feel at home for a little while, then go home, do homework, sleep, then do it all over again. This dull, endless circle is driving me crazy. I mean, yeah, sometimes there r fun, worthwhile conversations, and the weekends, theyre fun, but they dont last, no matter how much i wish they could; the world just continues in that stupid little circle. One more place on this planet is starting to feel more and more like home to me, which is nice, and i count down the days and hours 'til i can be there again.
K, well thats the end of my midnight spiel
Thanks for caring enough to read that ^ Just was thinkin bout it earlier and wanted to get it written out. The end, love u all

...now i get to go do another, probly 2 hours, of homework...